Arbitrary Elucidation » Weekly Plans

Life ‘N At

Daisy — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 04:49:26 +0000

I don’t know what to do anymore. There are moments when I hate my life, but most of the time I just get no pleasure from it. I know we’re not put on this earth to have fun, but sometimes I wish I could have more of it. I’m plodding through life. I go to work and I go grocery shopping. I get gas and take my car to the shop. Occasionally, I see my father. I work to pay the bills. I work OT to pay the bills. I work to put gas in the car so I can get to work. I come home, play Facebook games and read about other people’s lives on Livejournal and their blogs. I request blinkies and such because they can actually make me smile. On the weekends I spend most of my time reading which is the same as hiding from my life. *shrug* Why wouldn’t I want to? The people around are either busy or don’t talk to me. Goodness, if I didn’t have work related questions I could the entire day from the moment I leave the house until the minute I wake up the next morning and go downstairs without talking to anyone. And I’m not exaggerating. I talk more on weekends to my Mom, which is good. That wasn’t the case in the last week, but I’m not sure in that case it was worth it. I ended up more aggravated, but that was due to the person I was talking to. And even then it was only after work. I guess I’m too picky.

Despite getting slammed (for me) with offers this month, romance is not something I’m looking for nor is it something I even expect anymore. Going to weddings, no matter how much I love or like the people involved is awesome, but always a little bit hard. Jim is one of my favorite people – he always has been ever since The Beave. I truly regret not getting to see him recently – it’s been way too long. Stephany is awesome and I’m thrilled that they’re together and happy. The wedding was beautiful. Stephany was beautiful. It was great to see Jim doing one of those dances (thanks for that Stephany!). But still – Jim was my last single RL friend. Oh, I know the Knitting Mama doesn’t have someone right now, but that’s not exactly what I meant. *shrug* She’ll find someone. She’s a wonderful woman and a wonderful mom. I don’t think I know anyone who cares more or loves more. It will be a struggle, I’m sure, but it will happen in the end. I highly doubt it’s going to happen to me.

I’m not normal. Leaving aside the whole depression complication, I’m just weird. I love to read sci fi and fantasy. I love Star Trek: TNG and NCIS. I hate the majority of the reality TV shows. I love Steeler football but have no desire to go to a game. I love Pirates baseball and love going to the games. I’m very literal – too literal according to my mother. I don’t know how to do small talk. I’m not comfortable in large groups. Okay, certain types of large groups. Baseball games yes, parties no. I find word usage funny and a lot of times people don’t get it. It tends to lose something when you have to explain it. I have a schedule that most people don’t follow. I like weather disaster movies that most people think are cheesy (Twister, Volcano, Dante’s Peak, etc.). I like spice scented and apple scented candles. It doesn’t help that I’m overweight and not all that pretty. I watch “Say Yes to the Dress”, “4 Weddings”, read romance novels, watch my married and dating friends’ lives on Facebook and in journals and I wish. I do wish. But I don’t see it happening. Not only do I have all the things listed above, but I’m not used to romantic situations and I’m scared. The last two I thought were serious. I ended up with nothing at the end of both. In fact, I had to end the last one even though he was unhappy in the relationship. Now I don’t really talk to him because I know he has a tendency to hold on. The one before – well, I heard he moved out of state. Despite that, I thought I saw him the other day and I was almost terrified. Not to mention that dating is too expensive. Don’t try to tell me it isn’t. I wouldn’t have to do OT if it wasn’t.

So I will go back to my unsatisfying life and hope that some day I will find people that I fit in with and who want me around and have the time and inclination to do things with me but doubting that I ever will. I’m in the next thing to complete isolation here and it seems no matter how much I try it doesn’t change. I’m not about to become someone who badgers people to get them to make and carry through with plans with me. I’m not going to beg. Fear will keep me from large groups. Nothing will change because I don’t know how to change it and I will go on being not happy but not suicidal. Just hoping that life won’t go on too long because, as my mother likes to tell me, I have no one to take care of me when I’m old.

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 64°F;
Humidity: 72%;
Heat Index: 64°F;
Wind Chill: 64°F;
Pressure: 30.18 in.;

Weekly Plans 6/4 -6/14

Daisy — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 00:51:30 +0000

Monday, June 8, 2009

Work
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Work
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Party at Barbi’s
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Laundry
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Sleep in
laundry ?
Physical Therapy
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, June 12, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Work
Go to church?
Eat
Talk to Tom
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Work (OT)
Laundry ?
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 72°F;
Humidity: 81%;
Heat Index: 72°F;
Wind Chill: 72°F;
Pressure: 29.9 in.;

Weekly Plans 5/25-5/31

Daisy — Mon, 25 May 2009 17:31:55 +0000

Monday, May 25, 2009

Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Work
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Mom’s Birthday
Laundry
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Sleep in
laundry ?
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, May 29, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Work
Go to church?
Eat
Talk to Tom
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Laundry ?
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

Feeling : blank

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 77°F;
Humidity: 51%;
Heat Index: 79°F;
Wind Chill: 77°F;
Pressure: 30.04 in.;

Weekly Plans 5/18 – 5/24

Daisy — Mon, 18 May 2009 09:36:37 +0000

Monday, May 18, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Work
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Laundry
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Work
Pray for Mom as she’s having surgery
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, May 22, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Call Mom to see how she’s recovering from surgery
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, May 23, 2009

OT (?)
Go to church?
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry ?
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 40°F;
Humidity: 62%;
Heat Index: 39°F;
Wind Chill: 40°F;
Pressure: 30.28 in.;

Half week recap – weekly plans

Daisy — Wed, 13 May 2009 22:23:50 +0000

Recap!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Work (w/ 2 or so hours of overtime)
Eat dinner

Play with Kit

Talk to Tom

Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Work (hopefully w/ 2 hours of OT)
Make and eat dinner

Play with Kit

Talk to Tom

Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Laundry
Play with Kit

Talk to Tom

Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

My week is going, but I’m not nagging. I should be – I think only two people have read any of my book. It would be nice to have some feedback. *shrug* Maybe they shouldn’t. People might actually hate it and that wouldn’t be good. I wouldn’t like that at all. :/ I also didn’t get any OT on Tuesday which sucks. I have to call and find out about tomorrow. Nope, no OT for tomorrw. I guess I get to do that laundry. *sigh* I’d rather have ten hours of OT. At least I get to seep in. And have some more of my casserole.

That’s right – I cooked! I followed a recipe, put together ingredients, and made a casserole. Baked it in the oven and ate some. It’s yummy. I wish you could try it! That’s my success of the day. Now I’m getting ready to broil some steaks. Yummier, if you can believe that! Yay @ days off!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 71°F;
Humidity: 37%;
Heat Index: 77°F;
Wind Chill: 71°F;
Pressure: 30.09 in.;

Weekly Plans – 5/11-5/17

Daisy — Mon, 11 May 2009 22:47:33 +0000

Monday, May 11, 2009

Work (w/ 2 or so hours of overtime)
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Work (hopefully w/ 2 hours of OT)
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Laundry
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, May 14, 2009

OT?
Laundry ?
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, May 15, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Work
Go to church?
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry ?
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

Feeling : tired

Weekly Plans – 5/4 – 5/10

Daisy — Mon, 04 May 2009 08:07:44 +0000

Monday, May 4, 2009

Work (w/ 4 or so hours of overtime)
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Work (hopefully w/ 2 hours of OT)
Call about getting car inspected
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Get car inspected
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, May 8, 2009

Work (hopefully w/ 2 hrs OT)
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Work (hopefy 8-10 hrs OT)
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 53°F;
Humidity: 82%;
Heat Index: 53°F;
Wind Chill: 52°F;
Pressure: 29.92 in.;

Weekly Plans 4/27 – 5/3

Daisy — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 00:57:46 +0000

Monday, April 27, 2009

Mail bills
Work
Grocery & clothes shopping
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Work
Make and eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Laundry @ Mom’s
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Laundry (if I didn’t do it on Wednesday)
Clean floor
Clean couch
Take Christmas stuff downstairs
Take garbage out
See about seeing Charissa
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills.
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, May 1, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Work
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Play with Kit
Take pills
Sleep

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry (if I still have some at this point)
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 82°F;
Humidity: 26%;
Heat Index: 82°F;
Wind Chill: 82°F;
Pressure: 30.23 in.;

Weekly Plans 4/13/09 – 4/19/09

Daisy — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 05:21:42 +0000

Monday, April 13, 2009

Work
Grocery shopping
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Mail state taxes
Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Laundry
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Laundry (if I didn’t do it on Wednesday)
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills.
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, April 17, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep early

Saturday, April 19, 2009

Work
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Sleep

Sunday, April 20, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry (if I still have some at this point)
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep

The absolutely terrific Sarah of There’s More to the Story runs WeeklyPlans. Stop over and join in the fun!

-- Weather When Posted --

Temperature: 36°F;
Humidity: 34%;
Heat Index: 36°F;
Wind Chill: 32°F;
Pressure: 30.26 in.;

Weekly Plans 4/6-4/12

Daisy — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 01:08:59 +0000

Monday, April 6, 2009

Work
Explain to Nancy why I was late on Satuday.
Hope she doesn’t get mad at me.
Hope I have my probation talk
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Probation is over with! (I hope)
See about getting my car inspected
See about visiting Charissa and/or Barbi
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Work
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills.
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Friday, April 10, 2009

Work
Hope that I’ve had my probation talk by this point
Eat dinner
Play with Kit
Talk to Tom
Take pills
Nag people about reading my story
Go to sleep

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Sleep
Eat
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Sleep

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Go to church (?)
Laundry
Talk to Tom
Work on story
Go to sleep