Well, it’s time for another edition of “An Update”  using Michelle’s famous +/- rating system.

+I survived my sister’s wedding. It was beautiful and went well (except for the helicoptors).  She had a wonderfully choreographed first dance, a perfect cake cutting, and wonderful food.  And my 92 year-old grandfather has some great moves!

-I ended up in the er afterwards with pains in my side.  Diagnosis – musculoskeletal pain.  Go see your doctor.

+/-We were over an hour early for the wedding.  We saw both my mother and my sister arrive, along with my mother’s family.  But we did get to talk.

-I had a breakdown after the wedding (at 3 am) and was crying for an hour.  I upset Tom, too.  I also forgot to take one of my pills.

+I skipped work and went to my sister’s picnic on Friday and got to see a bunch of people.

-I skipped work and went to my sister’s picnic on Friday and got to see a bunch of people.

-I got sick at the picnic on Sunday.

-I didn’t feel very good for dinner at Cooky’s.

-Tom hasn’t gotten many miles this week.

+I survived two days of work and we didn’t have VTO.

+We get a bonus this week which should make up for the VTO that was called last week.

-I’ve had reviewer access at work for three weeks and have yet to be trained in it.

+I got a dress from my mother that I wore to the wedding.

+We got Tom an outfit cheaply.

+I got to slow dance with Tom.

-We were both feeling too poorly to dance otherwise.

-I don’t know how I’ll ever have a wedding that can compare to my sister’s wedding.

-I don’t think I do anything anymore to make someone proud.  Unless you count going to work, and, well really, I don’t.

-I had to get up early on my day off for my appt with Melissa.

+I had a good appt with Melissa.

-Tom’s not planning on coming home this weekend.

+I don’t have to work tomorrow.

-I have to work on Saturday and have to get up at 3:30 am to do so.

+I love Mouse Hunt on Facebook.

+I’m planning on taking part in NaNoWriMo in November.

-I have to come up with a new story.

The answer is yes. I think. It’s been busy around here. I’ve been working, but not working OT. I did get my bonus which means we’ll be able to pay rent this month. All my bills are paid for June and though July is started, I have to pay some more. I did see my finish my physical therapy. Yes, I’m finally done with the neck tortue. I start therapy next week. This is good, I think. I saw my phychiatrist and she yelled at me, of course. She wouldn’t let me stop the risperidol, which is what I want to do. I was told that after two to three months symptoms come back. It’s been three months, though, and my symptoms are pretty much not here. Read the rest of this entry »

I worked today and Tom is home. That’s difficult to deal with. I want to be home with him. *sigh* And I work tomorrow. And I do OT on Sunday. *sigh* I really do need to do OT because a) we need the money and b) I never know if VTO is going to come up. It’s a lot easier taking VTO when I have the hours to cover it.

Tom made a candlelight dinner tonight. He’s so good to me. We had chicken and buttered noodles. Then we walked to Rita’s for some Italian ice. I had custard and it was good. He had a wild cherry gelato which he liked. It looks like I may have some form of exercise induced asthma. I certainly hope not. But when I exhale when I’m breathing heavily it feels like my throat is closing up. *sigh*

Sunday we’re going to go see Clayton. I know Tom really wanted to see him and when I suggested he call Ian and see if we could come up, he went for it. So we’re going to call when we leave on Sunday. Tom’s going to drive me to work so we’ll leave right from there. He’s also driving me to work tomorrow so we can go to church. I’m always feeling too tired to drive after getting up so early. He can go home and rest.

I have to go. I want to watch the Pens game. We’re winning at the moment. I can only hope it continues. I can’t stay up for the whole game. I would have to work the weekend of the Stanley Cup finals. Go Pens!

It’s been a crazy day. I took an hour and a half of VTO (which means I’ll get an hour and a half less OT this week) today. I went grocery shopping. I got a chicken.

I’m sorry I’m not very interesting these days. I’m so cold right now that it’s hard to be creative. Not to mention the pain in my neck. It’s been worse since my visit to see the physical therapist. I’m hoping that it dies down before Monday, which is when I have my next appointment. I don’t want more pain. For goodness sake’s I went to the doctor to get help feeling better, not worse. *sigh* At least I have hot water today. I’m ready to go soak in it. Again. I can’t wait to go to sleep. To snuggle in my nice, soft, clean, and warm bed. I like to have my bedroom a tad on the cold side so I can snuggle down in bed and feel safe and warm. I think I’ll go sit in some hot water and then go to bed. Night all!

Physical therapy hurts. Or at least it hurt today. My neck is sore, but I have a better range of motion. Hopefully, that’ll keep up. I get twenty visits covered. *sigh* Hopefully I won’t need any more than that.

The hot water was back when I came home tonight! Yay! I got to take a nice hot shower! Yay! Now I’m tired. Short post tonight so I can go to bed.

I’ve spent time today thinking about the past and now I’m pretty depressed. I also have no hot water and no one to talk to. That doesn’t help. I’m thinking about just going to bed. I feel fat, ugly, and old. Did you ever have days like that? I was listening to the ACF worship cd and the COTS worship cd this afternoon. I wish I could sing. I’ve been told that I can, but I’m just not sure I believe it right now. I remember when I was involved with stuff, when I had places to go and people to see. I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t listen to Godspell. That would have really depressed me. Time for something more upbeat, I think.

I start physical therapy tomorrow. I drove over there tonight so I would know where it is. It’s not that hard to find and I’ll be able to make it in time – if all goes well. I just hope it does. Mom called to tell me that she’s okay. The doctor got all of the cells out of her. So that’s good news.

Eh, forget it. I’m taking my pills and going to bed. Night.

I worked today. OT. 6 hours. It was hard to get up at 430 am, but it went well. 6 hours isn’t nearly as long as 10 hours is. I worked and listened to my music. I bought lunch on the way home and Tom ordered pizza for me for dinner. Isn’t he sweet? I took no pictures this week so there’s no weekly winners. Sorry guys. I took some this morning of the sunrise so there will be some next week. Please have some patience.

My neck feels much better. I working on ideas for my story, but not reallly getting anywhere with them. I’m going to take a bath and go to bed. 430 comes quite early in the morning. Night all!

I’ve been up since 330 am and boy am I tired! I just had to sneak in a post before I go to bed. I’m not sure what to write. I’m not completely sure as to what I’m doing tomorrow. I know I’m working from 7-1, but after that I don’t know. There are tentative plans to gather at Charissa’s but I haven’t heard anything concrete. I should ask. I just took a bath and finished a book. There’s nothing like a nice hot bath and a book. Now I’m talking to Tom. I’ve just taken my pills, including the muscle relaxer. I swear between that and the anti inflammatory I’m feeling tons better. Even when the anti inflammatory wears off in the morning it still hurts much, much less than it was hurting. I’m so happy about that. You just have no idea. I have another book to start, but I’m think I just might wait till tomorrow to do that. I’m not sure. I’m not really sure about working tomorrow, though six hours of OT would be a great blessing. I just hope God can get me through it. I’m also hoping to get some laundry done. I tried to do it on Thursday, but the washer was full. Not being used, but full. *sigh* I’m hoping it won’t be full the next time I go to use it. I don’t know if it will be or not. That’s the annoying thing about being in a building with only one washer and one dryer.

Well, I went to see the doctor last night about my neck. It’s been hurting since last Tuesday and I really want it to stop. Well,appartenly I have a rotated or rotating vertabrae. She gave me a muscle relaxer (for at night) and an anti inflammatory to take twice a day. I have to do physical therapy. That will be expensive. I hope I can afford it. But I want this pain to go away, so I’ll do it. If it still hurts in a month I’m to go back. I hope it still doesn’t hurt in a month. That would just be way too long to be in pain.