Well, here’s what’s been going on.  I had my gall bladder out on Monday.  I don’t have to go back to work till next Wednesday.  I was approved for Short Term Disability.

I’m pretty sure Tom’s gotten his dream back.  I don’t want to say anything more because I don’t want to jinx it.  But it is amazing how God moves in people’s lives.

Mom had a tooth crack and it was removed.  That was giving her a lot of pain.  This is her first day bak at work since Thursday. She had to stay home with me Monday and yesterday which gave her two more days to recover.

Dad and Kathy came to the hospital with me.  I wasn’t sure I wanted them there, but got scared and called them Monday morning and they still came.  I wish Tom would have been able to have been there, but I know what he was doing was important.  I can’t wait to talk to him later.

Tom has Verizon on one of his phones. I have Verizon.  This means we can talk to each other on these phones at any hour of the day and not have to worry about going over minutes.  This is a good thing.  I know we used over a thousand peak minutes last month.  But I did have to get a texting plan.  So if you want to text me, you can!

Yes, I’ll probably be spammy this week as I get feeling better.  Its been a long time since I’ve had time to sit at the computer for any length of time.  Tom and I usually stay out too late!

I think tis time for me to go lie down and think about my sin of eating something too complicated too soon.  Don’t worry.  I’ll be back.

Stolen from nancypaynter who stole it from someone else. I don’t know who that someone else is, but here are my answers.

You know how sometimes people on your friends list post about stuff going on in their lives, and all of a sudden you think, “Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when???” And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers, putting yours in their places, and then post the result in your journal. Please elaborate on the questions which would benefit from elaboration! One-word-answers seldom help anyone out.

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My view of the world is a very negative one.

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Good evening one and all.  Its that time yet again.  Time for me to let all of you know my fun and exciting plans for the week.  We shall have to see if this week could possibly be any more exciting than the last one!

5/12 - Monday morning.  Work.  If I’m lucky, it won’t be raining when I’m trying to walk to the building.  We’ll probably go grocery shopping after work.  We didn’t go today.

5/13 - Tuesday.  I could call and see if I’m still welcome at the Tuesday night group, but I probably won’t get the courage to do so.  That means NCIS with mom.  Maybe do some cleaning.  *shrug*

5/14 - Wednesday.  Work, again.  Tonight I have therapy.  That should be interesting.  I still don’t have my homework done.  I don’t know when I will get it done.  Probably five minutes before I go in.  Yeah, procrastination combined with no clue as to what answers to provide.

5/15 - Thursday.  PAYDAY!  Nothing to do tonight.  I’m supposed to call my PCP and give her an update on how I’m doing, stomach-wise.  She works late tonight, so even if I forget to call while I’m at work, I’ll have the chance to do it once I get home.

5/16 - FRIDAY!  Last day of work for the week.  Again, nothing exciting.  Story of my life.

5/17 - Saturday.  I get to sleep in!  Probably more cleaning - Mom and I would like to get the house all nice and pretty.  She’s got some work to do in her room and that’s more her stuff, but I do have some stuff in the dining room to clean up.  And I can sweep and vacuum.  Put my books away.  General stuff like that.

5/18 - Sunday.  Yet another attempt to go to church.  I’m kinda scared to go, which isn’t making exactly motivated to go.  Laundry.  Sundays are laundry days.  If we’re lucky we’ll go grocery shopping so we won’t have to do it Monday night.

Weekly expected weather - Rain.  Cooler temps. High sixties as highs, forties as lows.  Chance for thunderstorms on Wednesdays.  That might be cool.  Monday’s high is only 49, but by Wednesday we should be hitting 70.  It gets colder from then on out.  And did I mention the rain?

We’ll see a week from now how the week went.

Stealing from Sarah

4/28 - Well, its kinda over for me. Its 8:55 pm and I’m about to go to bed. Just had work today. It was awful. I felt awful. If I had been able to, I would have gone home at about 10 am. Last 45 minutes of the day sucked horribly. I wish my supervisor would make up her mind. But, clean room, candle lighted, room lighted up, computer and kitty so much better now. If only my stomach would agree….

4/29 - Tuesday. Guess what! I’m going to that joy-filled place known as work. Once again I’ll be racing through my reports trying to get them done early enough. And helping out with wires. I wonder if Kiera will be there. She might have gone into labor this afternoon. Just what I need - my back up to go missing on me. Poor Kiera, though. She’s not due till June.

4/30 - Pay day! I get to go to all my billing websites and pay my bills. Doesn’t that sound like fun? Discover (this month and next month), MBNA (which is really Bank of America, but it was MBNA when I got the card!), and phone. Well, can’t quite pay the phone yet. The bill won’t be ready until after the 4th of May. Silly Verizon. Also find out what my employee discount will get me in the way of car insurance. If it goes like the quotes I got today, I’ll be sticking with what I have, even if it did go up $98 for no apparent reason. Oh yeah, I have therapy today. Joy.

5/1 - Just another day. Maybe getting some laundry done - my bed, I think. Though its a risky thing to do on a short night. Might have to stay up late letting it dry. Must empty the dishwasher. And it’s Thursday - trash day.

5/2 - Friday! One last day at work and I get to go home to my nice clean kitchen and room. Did I mention I cleaned up the kitchen this weekend?

5/3 - Yay! I get to sleep in. Or wake up and go back to sleep, however you want to describe it. Must work on dining room and solve the weekly dilemma - whether or not to go to Seeds. Probably won’t happen. Damn Terry.

5/4 - Maybe this Sunday I’ll wake up early enough to check out St. Stephens. Must find church. So far Mom’s liked Sharon Presby and I like St. Phillip’s. Twill be interesting to see what the service is like. If I can wake up early enough. Laundry day.

So that’s my week. It will also be cold, wet, and, thank God, not snowy. I like all the spring flowers, but ’tis almost time for them to be gone. Petals are falling. The grass in the backyard looks like it has dandruff. And the clock strikes nine o’clock. (Okay, so its a few minutes and an hour off. I won’t tell if you won’t!)

Edit: 5/2 - getting together with Knitting Mama.

Yeah. I know. I posted about that. I think I’m in the wedding, but I’m not positive. I asked her to let me know, but have gotten no response to that email. *sigh* Since I’m going to be in it I have to look good, right? The only problem is that I don’t. I know I can’t outshine my sister (and that would be very hard to do so I won’t even try), but I would like to look good in my own right. Bridesmaid dresses aren’t very forgiving. My face is slowing getting worse (I haven’t been taking care of it like I should) and I weigh way too much. And I don’t want to hear a lot of people saying that I look fine and that its all in my head. I have approximately 30 to 40 lbs to lose. Can you tell by looking at me straight on? Not really. Sideways? Oh yes. My stomach sticks out farther than my boobs. That’s called being overweight. Heck, with the tight restrictions they now have on weight and height, I might even qualify as obese. I’m up to a size 16 pant (okay, so its a little loose - I have to wear a belt, but you try finding pants that come between a 14 and a 16. I dare you) and an extra large aka 1X top. I’ve picked good tops - its hard to tell when I’m in them that I’m overweight. I know the deal - eat right, exercise, etc. I am getting more exercise than I was when I was working at Coventry. Unfortunately I’ve just gained weight. I’m not good at eating right. Its linked to the depression thing. I get the urge to eat, sometimes when I’m not even hungry. And I get very hungry. I’ve been trying to cut back on food intake, at least, but its hard. I’m still hungry. I eat breakfast between 8 and 8:15. I’m hungry by 10:30. I eat lunch between 1 and 1:30. I’m hungry by five. And I’m not talking about a little hunger either. I’m talking about huge hunger - sometimes so much so that I get short tempered and have trouble concentrating. I’m hungry now, but I’ve already gotten ready for bed tonight so no more food for me. The only way I’ve ever lost weight was to stop eating food at work. I did that for Lent one year. I fasted while I was at work. I don’t know if I should do that again this year. But not eating is not the proper way to lose weight. I know that. Yet I’m so exhausted when I get home from work and so dang hungry that I don’t have what it takes to make meals. I don’t even have an recipies. I suppose I should buck up and just do it. I suppose that I should look forward to the point in time when I do lose weight and do feel better about myself. And I should find the time to exercise. I could do it. If I had the energy. The answers seem so simple, but the task are monumental. I don’t know if I can do it. Maybe I’ll fast while I’m at work for Lent again and try to pick up with healthy eating habits at work and at home. *sigh* I’m so tired of it all. Its lines of thinking like this that make me not want to go on. Okay, so what’s the plan - Wednesday starts Lent, right? I’ll eat breakfast, either at home or at work. But not both. I’ll drink water instead of eating morning snack, lunch, and afternoon snack. I’ll come home and make one of our dinners and maybe both Mom and I will eat something better than what we have been. No more cookies. No more pie. No more cake. No more milkshakes. No more of any of the stuff that makes me feel better. Tell me again, what’s the point of living if you’re miserable? Cause I’m going to spend probably the next two to three years being miserable. Then again, does it really matter anyways?

Its been over ten days since I posted. That’s a long time. What have I been up to? Well, the truth is not much. I get up at 5/530 every day and don’t get home from work until about six. On Tuesdays I have to drive back across town for small group and on Wednesdays I go straight to the chiropracter. *sigh* I just don’t have that much energy when I get home. I’m so tired. I have no idea if I’m going to adjust to this or spend the next unknown amount of years feeling tired every weekday. I’m hoping for the former. Really hoping for the former. As you all know my sister got engaged less than a month than a month ago. So I’ve resolved to lose 30 to 40 lbs by 6/6/09. I’m not doing so well with this so far. I’ve actually gained weight since I started working. Since I’m doing a lot more walking I am more than a little confused. Does sitting on a bus cause weight gain? Maybe I’m just not walking fast enough. I don’t know about that one - I end up with sore shins everytime and I’m sure as heck trying to get out of the cold! The cold is bearable (I’m good at bundling up) but I’m definately not looking forward to the summer. It can get so hot.

I’ve gotten my finances all worked out. For the next five years. And I’ve already done my taxes. I want that refund. With that I should be able to pay off one card by May. Well, that’s if I can keep my personal expenses down to $250 a month. *sigh* Not going to be easy. And its going to be that way for the next two and a half years. *double sigh* That’s everything - gas, prescriptions, food, etc. I’m not going to have any play money. And I probably won’t have any for the next two and a half years. Are we getting the theme here? I may have to stop my chiro appts. I’m not sure if I can afford them. I already owe them something like $78. I still don’t have my health cards for insurance that was supposed to start on January 2. I’m still waiting for my new debit card and pin number. Yes, I changed banks. Again. Citizen has ATMs in the lobby. Its that easy. Anyways, I went to pay all my bills yesterday but I was only able to hit one of the three. Changing bank accounts has caused trouble. Bank of America wants confirmation. Yes, they want me to type in the stupid little deposits they’ve made on my account. Easy enough to do, right? Just hop on the bank’s web site and look them up. Sorry folks, its not that easy. I have to have my atm card number in order to sign up for my online banking. I haven’t received the atm card. So I have to remember to do all that next week after I get the atm card. I have to change my pay pal account, though I’m not sure why. I’m not going to be buying anything on ebay or at my fave sites. Anyways, I try to pay my verizon bill - they don’t have it ready. I just wanted to get them all done in one fell swoop. Apparently I have delusions of grandeur. I probably won’t be able to keep to my payment schedule which will extend the amount of time and money I have to pay on the second credit card. I will pay one of the two off this year.

Okay, so there’s your update. I’m exhausted so I’m off to bed.

No, silly, not for me. But this is the weekend of engagements. My sister is now engaged to her longtime boyfriend (ha! He’s her fiance now!) and Ellen and Justin became engaged at church Saturday night (and I was going to go, too. Darn it!) I guess I’ll have to wait to see both of the rings (maybe I’ll sneak over to small group on Tuesday night!) So happiness and joy to all the affianced!

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