Rough week
I’ve been having a rough time of it recently. The weather was nice for a while, but has gone bad in the past week. Rainy and coldish. Although the rain wasn’t as bad as I hoped. I’ve been very depressed. I’m thinking of starting to take the Welbutrin again, but I’m afraid to bring it up to Tom. He wants me off of the meds as much as I do. I’m still not off the Risperdal. I tried and it was just a mess. I missed my last appt with my psychiatrist. *sigh* That’s what I get for not listening to my messages. I worked 12 hours on Monday which sucked. I was exhausted for most of the day. Right up until it became time for me to go to sleep. *sigh* Today was tiring, but went much faster. I’m worried that Tom won’t be home for our anniversary. 
Mom’s having surgery. Small surgery, but surgery none the less. Debbie’s being a bitch. She upset me when I was feeling suicidal so I had a rough trip home last Thursday. I got the invitation for her bridal shower today. *sigh* I don’t have the money to buy her a gift. Somebody shoot me. I’m feeling very discouraged, unloved, unwanted, unlovable, unwantable, and like a failure. I suck.
Oh love, it sounds like you are having a hard time. Not a great time for me to be offline in terms of being able to read other’s blogs. You most certainly aren’t unloved – I saw the roses that Tom gave you – that was a gesture from the heart if ever I saw one. I would imagine Kit loves you very much too. I’m sorry about your mum and hope she recovers from her surgery quickly. As for your sister, the fact that she’s being a bitch tells me that something’s going wrong in her life. Nobodies life is perfect and there will be things that she’s hiding because she wants to keep a good image out there. Take care of yourself, get plenty of rest and eat well. You’ll come through this.
No prob @ being offline. We all have life to take care of, unfortunately. Thanks for the well wishes. I do appreciate them.