How do you apologize to people you love yet haven’t been fair to?  Who you’ve let down again and again?  Who you are jealous of?  Everytime I get it started in my head, it dries up when I go to write it.  Its all so difficult.  I know they don’t understand what’s happened to me and that they don’t understand why I did the things I did.  I can’t expect them to.  I have something that’s not understandable until you’ve gone through it yourself.  And, as far as I know, and luckily for them, they haven’t.  I wouldn’t wish my life on anyone.  Not even Terry.  God used a song I heard at work to convict me of my injustice to these friends.  Now I just have to figure out what to say.

Praise God! I made it through today.  It only inlcuded a 4 am wake up with a ten hour day at work and the thought that I wouldn’t be able to talk to Tom until tomorrow night or Thursday.  I was sleepy in the beginning of the day.  I will admit that.  But I survived.  And I got to talk to Tom.  Well, am getting to.  He was able to get a signal from his stopping point.  Yay!!!  And his majesty (Kit) demanded some attention.  He also got some hometime scheduled – March 1-14.  Yay!!!  Speaking of, anyone know of any place to buy pretty underwear when you’re too big for Victoria’s Secret?  My rack is too big, so to speak. (Sarah!) I’m off tomorrow and Thursday. Yay!!!  Anyone up for anything?  Catch y’all later!

Monday, February 2, 2009

• Work
• Eat dinner
• Play with Kit
• Talk to Tom
• Take pills
• Nag Sarah about reading my story
• Go to sleep

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

• Work
• Cash paycheck
• Eat dinner
• Play with Kit
• Talk to Tom
• Take pills
• Nag Sarah about reading my story
• Go to sleep

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

• Work
• Eat dinner
• Play with Kit
• Talk to Tom
• Take pills
• Nag Sarah about reading my story
• Go to sleep

Thursday, February 5, 2009

• Work
• Eat dinner
• Play with Kit
• Talk to Tom
• Take pills.
• Nag Sarah about reading my story
• Go to sleep

Friday, February 6, 2009

• Work
• Eat dinner
• Play with Kit
• Talk to Tom
• Take pills
• Nag Sarah about reading my story
• Go to sleep

Saturday, February 7, 2009

• Work
• Sleep
• Eat
• Talk to Tom
• Work on story
• Sleep

Sunday, February 8, 2009

• Work
• Go to church (?)
• Laundry
• Taxes
• Go to sleep

We won the Super Bowl – that’s six for Pittsburgh.  We’re now the winningest football franchise in history!  GO STEELERS!!!