What if?
Do you ever spend time wondering how things would be different if you could go back and change something? Tom and I play the what if game all the time. What if he had asked me out before Terry did? What if I had talked to him on New Year’s Eve last year? What if we could go back and change things? Facts are we can’t. And we certainly wouldn’t be the same people if we could. Truth is, I’m not sure how much I would change things. That would make who I am different. Of course, it could be that it would be for the better, but the thing is, I doubt it. I’ve gone through the struggles that I have for a reason. God doesn’t let things happen that don’t get used for His glory. I just wish, sometimes, that I had met and talked to Tom long ago – before the mess with Terry. Being with Terry changed me for the negative. It pops up sometimes in our relationship now. *shrug* I can’t change things. I guess I just want to be the best girlfriend Tom has ever had. And I will endeaver to do so!
At this late date in my life I’ve decided that things happen the way they do for a reason. Oh I could have done without being involved with the idiots I was involved with before Richard. But I don’t think I’d appreciate Richard as much as I do if I hadn’t dealt with the 3 morons.
What if games really don’t do any good. Look at Terry as a road bump on the path to Tom and be happy in the here and now. He sounds like a great guy.. Tom that is.