I don’t know what words to use to convey the way I’m feeling.  Physically, I still am having stomach aches, heart burn, car sickness, and head aches.  I don’t know what to do to get them to go away.  Mentally, I’m doing much worse.  Its hard to think when I’m feeling so poorly.  I don’t like life.  I don’t.  I don’t like my job.  I have nothing to look forward to.  I know I should find something.  Anything.  Right now, I hurt so much that I can’t think of anything.  I have homework from therapy and a book to read.  I’ll buy a copy next week, but this week she lent me the office copy.  The funny thing is that I’ll probably have it read before I buy it next week.  I think I’m just going to take my meds and go to bed.  I don’t have the energy (emotionally or physically) for anything else.

5/5 – Monday. That means work.  I have to remember to take my new prescription at lunch, which means I have to remember to take it to work with me.  Maybe I’ll grab some and stick it in a different bottle and not take the whole prescription with me.  Considering how late it is, I’ll probably be doing laundry – towels.  We don’t think we’ll have enough time to do them today, especially if I want to wash my bed.

5/6 – Work again.  I really don’t have anything planned. Watching NCIS will probably be the highlight of the day.

5/7 – Ah, Wednesday.  Halfway through the week.  Down to business – therapy tonight.  Hopefully, I won’t end up as upset as I did last week.  I don’t want to go through that stomach ache again.

5/8 – More work.  Then rushing to see my psychiatrist.  I’ll have to tell him about my new meds and how I’ve been doing.  Which is not so good.  *sigh* Trash day. *double sigh*  This week we throw the kitty litter out.

5/9 – FRIDAY!!  Last day of work for the week.  Mom and I might just go out to dinner.

5/10 – Weekend!  Sleep – I sleep a lot on the weekends.  Possibly some cleaning.  Possibly.  Still have work to do on the dining room table.  Then what else needs to be cleaned?  The office – I have to put all of my books away.  I could do that.  And Mom’s room needs to be cleaned. And the living room could use a sprucing up.  We should sweep and Swiffer Wet Jet the place, too.

5/11 – Mother’s day.  I’ll spend the day with Mom. We’ll probably do laundry, and will try to get to church.  Again.  Stupid stomach.

Well, that’s my week.  How’s yours?

Well, if you’ve been following my updates on Facebook and Twitter, then you know I’m having some problems with my stomach.  Heck, I think I’ve even mentioned it here.  Horrible stomach aches.  Monday I would have left work early if I would have been able to; Tuesday, as we all already know, I stayed home from work because I felt worse than I had on Monday.  I did go to my doctor’s appt on Thursday and we discussed some things.  We changed my medication to one they use for IBS to stop the muscle spasms.  She also told me to take Miralax.  I’ve been having stomach aches all weekend.  I haven’t left the house since Friday night when Mom and I went out (Red Lobster – yum!).  So I have two weeks to see how that goes and then I call Dr. Denise and report.  So far, its not anything good.  I’ve still been getting stomach aches and now have cramping to go along with it.  Of course, its only been since Thursday night so I suppose I have to give it some time.  One of the things she mentioned was the possibility that it could be my gall bladder.  I do not want it to be my gall bladder.  I do not want to have surgery.  I do not want to have my gall bladder removed, even if it is done laproscoptically(sp).  However, it does run in my family.  My mother had her gall bladder removed years ago and my maternal grandfather had his gall bladder removed many, many years ago.  But if things don’t improve, she’s going to send me back to the GI doctors.  I did have a scan that did show that my gall bladder is 27% less effective than it should be.  Not that I know how that relates to anything.  We also talked about diet – how I have to avoid complex carbohydrates and the like.  Diabetes runs in my family on my maternal side.  My mother was recently diagnosed with it and my maternal grandmother had it as well.  Oh yeah, my uncle has it as well.  I’m going to start looking into cooking.  Blech.  Not exactly what I want to do after a long day at work, but it would be better for mom and me.  I am getting more exercise.  I’ve increased my walking distances and added stairs to my walk to and from work.  *sigh*  I need to do more.  I know that.  I just don’t want to do it.