Its been a long month. Trying to fit in at work, get things down, learn what to do, etc. My depression is back. I’m trying to get into therapy, but the earliest appointment is the tenth, and I’m cancelling that one. I have one of the 12th with the group I’m already in and I’d like to stay with them. I don’t want to switch to a new group. My sister came home for the bridal show and I just wanted to die. I am nothing when compared to her. Her fiance just made captain. She goes for captain training in March/April. If she passes, she’ll be moving back in here in July. That’s going to make my life very difficult considering how utterly inferior I feel in comparison to her. Not that she shouldn’t move back in, its just – its going to be hard on me. She’s got a lot of things that I’d love to have. I don’t think I’ll ever have them. The good news – I will have one credit card paid off at the end of the month.

So I guess I’ll leave you with that good news. I’m miserable, but it doesn’t matter. This time next year I’ll almost be free.