This is the second year that I’ve worked for Coventry. Its not been a good one. I didn’t get my raise in August. I’ve been repeatedly yelled at by both my team lead and my supervisor. I was given and told that I was given a below average bonus. I’ve gotten more and more work and less and less credit. We switched jobs and I was able to handle both, but Lori was not able to handle Med D. I was taken off to do refunds (I really like doing refunds). A week and a half later I’m back doing check deposits and return check letters (I really don’t like doing return check letters). I got yelled at for sending out a letter that was approved by two people above me. Nothing happened to either of them. My team relations have steadily gone down. My team lead favors Lori (she can do no wrong). We had a meeting not long ago where we were told that all refunds were being transferred to cash posting. I really like doing refunds. My supervisor came out with a black out schedule (conviently enough the day I asked for time off which she denied). I can’t take off from the third business day before the end of the month through the fourteeth of the month. That’s over half the month. That was the last straw. I had been looking for a job. I went on several interviews. I signed up with temp agencies. I had no offers. Then out of the blue I get contacted by The Bank of New York Mellon Wealth Management. I interviewed and got the job. So Jan 2nd will be my last day at Coventry. AEP has been hell. OT out the wazoo. I’m not working New Year’s day. I dont’ care what they say, I’m not doing it. What are they going to do, fire me? Although I’m nervous about taking the bus, I can’t wait to get out of there. One of the best parts – breaking it to the teams. One of the worst parts? Well, just like they did my birthday (during which they decided to delay celebrating my birthday until later in the week becasue Sunitha’s birthday was the next week) they came up short on celebrating my leaving. We have a tradition of having a last dinner when someone leavers. Serita and I tried to organize one for last Friday, but no one was interested. It was pay day Friday so it wasn’t a money reason. It was somewhere different the JC so it wasn’t that reason. They just don’t care. They wanted to wait until the 11th. I’ll have been gone nine days by then. Then Serita tells me Tina wanted to send out an email to have a dinner for those people who couldn’t come to the Chirstmas party. Serita pointed out that it was kinda rude to do that when everyone decided dinner with me wasn’t worth it. Tina agreed and just said to send it after I was gone. Classy, wasn’t it. They just don’t give a damn about me. I’m glad I’m getting out of there. And as an extra bonus, Terry will no longer have my email address for work and will no longer be able to contact me. Yay! Anyways, its bed time so I’m off.

The end of a year. Its been a long year, though its gone quickly. I think the biggest thing is that I lost a fiance. Its not such a bad thing. He’s hurt me a lot and he won’t let go. I’m probably going to see him in the next few days and I dread it. I don’t want to come into contact with him. I know I’m still vulnerable to his tale telling. I had it thrown in my face pretty severely that he lies and tells tales. It hurt me deeply. People know I don’t want to run into him. He knows I don’t want to have contact with him. Its changed my life, and not in a good way. I lost a church that I loved. I miss out on Seeds events. I don’t go into that part of the city much. I’ve blocked his emails and his im names on all of my personal emails and instant messengers. I can’t block him at work. He’s been emailing me. He’s wanted me to tell him details of the banquet. To grow up and get over it already. To talk to him and “be his friend”. Just because I was able to do that with Ian doesn’t mean that I can do it with him. Ian’s honest and trustworthy. I knew he would not try to hurt me. I can’t say that about Terry. He’s already pretty blatently ignored my wishes. He insults me and swears at me every time I tell him to leave me alone. Its another one of the reasons why I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to have to face that kind of attack. I don’t think he cares enough to not do it if I say or do something that he does not like. I’m tired. I don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want a confrontation. I just don’t know if I can avoid one with the banquet and Johnstown trip.