This is the second year that I’ve worked for Coventry. Its not been a good one. I didn’t get my raise in August. I’ve been repeatedly yelled at by both my team lead and my supervisor. I was given and told that I was given a below average bonus. I’ve gotten more and more work and less and less credit. We switched jobs and I was able to handle both, but Lori was not able to handle Med D. I was taken off to do refunds (I really like doing refunds). A week and a half later I’m back doing check deposits and return check letters (I really don’t like doing return check letters). I got yelled at for sending out a letter that was approved by two people above me. Nothing happened to either of them. My team relations have steadily gone down. My team lead favors Lori (she can do no wrong). We had a meeting not long ago where we were told that all refunds were being transferred to cash posting. I really like doing refunds. My supervisor came out with a black out schedule (conviently enough the day I asked for time off which she denied). I can’t take off from the third business day before the end of the month through the fourteeth of the month. That’s over half the month. That was the last straw. I had been looking for a job. I went on several interviews. I signed up with temp agencies. I had no offers. Then out of the blue I get contacted by The Bank of New York Mellon Wealth Management. I interviewed and got the job. So Jan 2nd will be my last day at Coventry. AEP has been hell. OT out the wazoo. I’m not working New Year’s day. I dont’ care what they say, I’m not doing it. What are they going to do, fire me? Although I’m nervous about taking the bus, I can’t wait to get out of there. One of the best parts - breaking it to the teams. One of the worst parts? Well, just like they did my birthday (during which they decided to delay celebrating my birthday until later in the week becasue Sunitha’s birthday was the next week) they came up short on celebrating my leaving. We have a tradition of having a last dinner when someone leavers. Serita and I tried to organize one for last Friday, but no one was interested. It was pay day Friday so it wasn’t a money reason. It was somewhere different the JC so it wasn’t that reason. They just don’t care. They wanted to wait until the 11th. I’ll have been gone nine days by then. Then Serita tells me Tina wanted to send out an email to have a dinner for those people who couldn’t come to the Chirstmas party. Serita pointed out that it was kinda rude to do that when everyone decided dinner with me wasn’t worth it. Tina agreed and just said to send it after I was gone. Classy, wasn’t it. They just don’t give a damn about me. I’m glad I’m getting out of there. And as an extra bonus, Terry will no longer have my email address for work and will no longer be able to contact me. Yay! Anyways, its bed time so I’m off.

The end of a year. Its been a long year, though its gone quickly. I think the biggest thing is that I lost a fiance. Its not such a bad thing. He’s hurt me a lot and he won’t let go. I’m probably going to see him in the next few days and I dread it. I don’t want to come into contact with him. I know I’m still vulnerable to his tale telling. I had it thrown in my face pretty severely that he lies and tells tales. It hurt me deeply. People know I don’t want to run into him. He knows I don’t want to have contact with him. Its changed my life, and not in a good way. I lost a church that I loved. I miss out on Seeds events. I don’t go into that part of the city much. I’ve blocked his emails and his im names on all of my personal emails and instant messengers. I can’t block him at work. He’s been emailing me. He’s wanted me to tell him details of the banquet. To grow up and get over it already. To talk to him and “be his friend”. Just because I was able to do that with Ian doesn’t mean that I can do it with him. Ian’s honest and trustworthy. I knew he would not try to hurt me. I can’t say that about Terry. He’s already pretty blatently ignored my wishes. He insults me and swears at me every time I tell him to leave me alone. Its another one of the reasons why I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to have to face that kind of attack. I don’t think he cares enough to not do it if I say or do something that he does not like. I’m tired. I don’t want to deal with it. I don’t want a confrontation. I just don’t know if I can avoid one with the banquet and Johnstown trip.

Merry Christmas to all. I hope you had a wonderful, happy holiday with those you love you.

One day less.

I got the job, I got the job, I got the job…if you want the story you’ll have to ask me!

I wish

a) that I had the time and energy to do a real post about my actual life.
b) that I had the time and energy to write.
c) that I had the time and energy to do my skillpathing (and read the 30 month plan!).
d) that I had real presents for people instead of gift cards.
e) that small group was happening tomorrow night.
f) that I could figure out how to get gifs to save transparently.
g) that I had the energy and the courage to put out my idea for a dolling theme.
h) that it was January.
i) that they weren’t taking my refunds away.
j) that I could have been sent to another team.
k) that I had gotten the job.
l) that I had the time and energy to buy gas and cat food (okay, so that gets done tomorrow night irregardless of whether or not I have energy).
m) that I had more money.
n) that I had less debt.
o) that I had gotten a gift for the grab bag today.
p) that I was pushy enough to go for more money.
q) that I had more time for my family (and for me!).
r) that Seeds of Hope could be transplanted to Coraopolis.
s) that Mom would get a new job.
t) that the puppy was house trained.
u) that I could get upstairs clean and nice.
v) that I could easily upload the new version of WordPress (or better yet, get someone else to do it for me!)
w) that I had the time and energy to do Christmas cards (and the addresses!).
x) that all the pets would get along.
y) that Dad and Kathy would just get married already.
z) that I had places to be and people to be with

Okay, that took about five to seven minutes. How long did it take you to get 26 wishes?

A decision has been made. We’ll just have to wait and see what happens. *rubs hands together*

BTW - this weekend has been hell. Again.

I’m not sure which day it was - they’re all blurring together. I think it was Friday. My phone started vibrating, so I grabbed it, a piece of paper, and a pen. I hurried out to the lobby where I actually answered the call. It was a lady from New York Mellon. I was asked if I was still looking for a position. She got my resume from Monster.com (yes, I’ll plug Monster, Careerbuilder, and Work Pittsburgh) and wanted a clean copy of my resume emailed to her. So of course I did! I took time out of my busy day to download my resume, shorten it to one page, and emailing it off to the lady. I got another call Saturday morning asking me to set up an interview - so I did. I have one on Thursday at 8:30 am downtown. Which means I’ll have to get downtown. Eep! I’m not sure where I’m going either. Dad said to walk to Fifth St and walk up it till I get to Grant. I think. I’ll have to check again on Wednesday night. Hopefully, it goes well.

Well, maybe not quite yet - but I’m getting there. I’ve signed up for 31 hours of overtime this week and I’ve already gone over tonight! And that doesn’t count the 13.5 I did this weekend. But we have to get those applications in. We own them now, no sending them back. Ha! I had several that had more than one application on a fax. So I did more than my numbers reflect. I’m going to go get ready for bed now. I miss you all!

Well the new week began today with, that’s right, more overtime! Can we all cheer for that? I’m not signed up for as much as I was last week (thank God), but I still have over 20 hours. 21 hours logged for application entering and 9.5 for the refund project. Yes, I have no life. Yes, the only thing I do is work. You got a problem with that? Tough. It will be that way for the next four to five weeks - well, at least the application part of it. I haven’t a clue as to how long the refund project overtime will go. We started with 57,436 credits to research (approx) and we’ve been doing to for a week and a day now. I don’t think we’ve gotten all that many done. They can be complex and take a while to work through. I wonder if we’ll get stuck working on the debit project, too. Have to figure out how many of those people are really SSA and don’t owe us anything, right? At least, before we right all 14 million dollars of it off. *shrug* I’m just going to worry about the 3.6 million dollars in credits.

So Mom had a horrific day and I offered to get her something. I ended up going to the grocery store and spending fifty dollars - money that I really don’t have. I went to Sheetz to get dinner and an icee. I got dinner, but the light was on for the Pepsi icee. I was so disappointed. *cries* And I forgot to get my prescriptions and stuff - that should be another 50 dollars, at least. I have to get calcium+D, Centrum Performance, temazipam, alprazalam, and EstroStep. Why does it all have to happen this week? Why not two weeks from now. I can afford all of this two weeks from now. Okay, a week from Friday. That’s still almost two weeks!

I just checked - I’m safe. My credit card isn’t due until the 14th which is when I get paid which means I’ll have the money to pay it with no problems - at the level I want to be paying at. Woohoo! I got rid of the stupid credit protection plan (which has been of no help to me) and saved $200 a month. So my balance is actually down this month. Yay! And it will keep going down. Yay!

Okay, enough from me. Its late and I’m tired. And I have to get up early this morning - but I moved the cushions and my car is in the garage which means I don’t have to get up and scrape snow off the car in the morning! Woohoo! No, really, its time for bed. G’night all!