As I write this I’m having an IM conversation with Terry. I don’t know what he wants from me. He’s talking about how stupid he was to break up with me. He wants to see me, to have coffee sometime, but I don’t see that happening. I’m being hostile. He’s being…pathetic. He’s trying to tell me he’s tired of dating and that he might have done things differently if he had the chance to do them over. Now she was married and he didn’t know it. He doesn’t date married people. He didn’t bother to read her yahoo profile. I did when she first contacted me and I found out she was only separated. *shrug* He says he’s going to do that in the future. He’s said several times in a couple of different ways that he had a good thing going and he was stupid and ruined it. To which I reply that he wasn’t stupid. Doing something stupid doesn’t make you stupid. I tend to avoid calling people names. Although the girl who used to sit next to me at work I thought (and think) is stupid. Now I’m telling him he needs to get going to church for Bible study. And of course he tells me he’s not going. So I could have went. Well, maybe not. I do believe that he would have stopped me going from the church to the car. He knows when Bible study gets out and he for some reason wants to see me. I don’t think I should let that happen. I don’t want to have to face him alone. Yes, I am scared. I’m not sure what of, but I’m scared. Maybe its that I worry he will talk me back into going out with him, even though I know its not a good idea. I told him that I wasn’t going to get back together with him almost two hours ago and haven’t heard from him since. I don’t know if he left or if he’s there and just not talking to me or what. *shrug* Not much I can do about it. I’m going back to the food network – Good Eats is on and I like that.